I feel sad to leave
And excited to go
There is fear in me
Embracing the unknown
I feel courageous
And scared shitless
I feel like I’m falling
And I’m rising
I feel one with the
Wind, the tide and the Seas
I feel like I’m going
to fall on my knees
I feel relaxed
Connected with the Sun
I feel like I’m
Going to shoot
Everyone with a gun
I feel hopeless, depressed
And confused
It feels inevitable to lose
I feel like nothing
empty
And scared of everything
I feel like I could puke
All the time
With all this shit
What’s the benefit?
Emotional processing
I’m so sick of it
All of it moving so quickly out
Of me
Emotions rise
And fall
And take their toll
On my body
My exhausted body
And then, I can breathe
again
Breath of life
Sweeter than before
Because now I know
The price of one more
One more moment
On this Earth
Is a gift
My world is bereft
Of my brother
There’s not another
He was the one
And now he’s gone
Leaving me
In sadness so deep
I’m not sure I’ll be able to swim
Again
And then I do
I embrace the truth
That he was sent to us
To show us how to live
Even through fear
The most fear
Because on the other side
Is more than I can imagine
Full of fun loving adventure and bliss
I would never choose to miss
Out on this life
My one precious life
I live it in honor of him
The one who I learned how to swim
With
He guides me
From his rightful place
Now
Where he sits
Watching me
Building my empire for me
Made from leggos of love
I am connected to him
And he helps me know
That it’s okay to let go
Of the fear
It doesn’t have to live here
It serves you none, he says
“Please, just go have fun.”