A New Day.

A joyful morning

A cheerful bird song

A meditation in the hammock


Relaxing

Releasing

Repeating


All day

I could stay this way


Dreamy

Dreamy

Dreamy


No problems

Until I create them

Then solve them


In one side

Out the other

Every day this way


Working on my habits

Dreams

and Emotions


Wondering when

I'll release myself

From prison


Reading

Writing

Reading

Writing


What's to stop me from being?


Aren't you seeing?

I'm just existing.


Finally.


So,

why does it feel so lonely?


Why can't I shake


This unbearable dread

that I made a huge mistake?


Why can't I remember

why I'm even here?


It's like I baked a cake

and have no one to share it with


Drowning in loneliness


Why have I created

a life of isolation?


What's the reason?


Oh yeah.


Because I'm crazy

Bat shit crazy


Relationships are hard for me

Always have been

No longer have to be


It's like all my sins

Come out in one big scene


Yeah, it's ugly


Who would want to Love me?


*******silence********


And then.........


A whisper in the back seat


"I do"

Really soft and sweet


"Who is that?" I demand.

"Please, raise your hand"


And I look

deep down and see


Oh yeah, it's me


It's me that wants to Love me.


Imagine that

My own fan

My confidante

and sweet friend


Ready to love me

Ready to hold my hand


Through whatever happens

it doesn't matter

because nothing can shatter

the Love between

myself and me.


Ah, just another day.


A new day.


Just for me

and deeper self-discovery.