A joyful morning
A cheerful bird song
A meditation in the hammock
Relaxing
Releasing
Repeating
All day
I could stay this way
Dreamy
Dreamy
Dreamy
No problems
Until I create them
Then solve them
In one side
Out the other
Every day this way
Working on my habits
Dreams
and Emotions
Wondering when
I'll release myself
From prison
Reading
Writing
Reading
Writing
What's to stop me from being?
Aren't you seeing?
I'm just existing.
Finally.
So,
why does it feel so lonely?
Why can't I shake
This unbearable dread
that I made a huge mistake?
Why can't I remember
why I'm even here?
It's like I baked a cake
and have no one to share it with
Drowning in loneliness
Why have I created
a life of isolation?
What's the reason?
Oh yeah.
Because I'm crazy
Bat shit crazy
Relationships are hard for me
Always have been
No longer have to be
It's like all my sins
Come out in one big scene
Yeah, it's ugly
Who would want to Love me?
*******silence********
And then.........
A whisper in the back seat
"I do"
Really soft and sweet
"Who is that?" I demand.
"Please, raise your hand"
And I look
deep down and see
Oh yeah, it's me
It's me that wants to Love me.
Imagine that
My own fan
My confidante
and sweet friend
Ready to love me
Ready to hold my hand
Through whatever happens
it doesn't matter
because nothing can shatter
the Love between
myself and me.
Ah, just another day.
A new day.
Just for me
and deeper self-discovery.