Oh brother
Oh brother
Where art thou
I feel lost without you
I feel like a half of me is missing
Like a shadow on my side
Hollow and grave
What a mistake
This world made
Letting you go
Don’t you know
How loved you were?
So many people showed up for you
But where were you?
We threw a party for you
But where were you?
We sang your praises
And told stories about you
But where were you?
I gave a speech
And spoke nicely about you
Because I love you
But where were you?
Where were you
When I needed you
To help Mom and Dad
As they crumbled in pain
Where were you
When all your friends asked about you
And what happened to you
And still wanted to party with you
Where were you
When I let the pain in
And didn’t know if I would live
Where were you
When your girlfriend found you
And it wasn’t you
Just your body
Hollow and lifeless
Where are you now?
I think I know
I feel you up there
Having a ball
Way more fun than us all
Still
You win
At life
But now my life
Has changed
Everything has been re-arranged
I feel hopeless
And drowning
Unable to decide where I’m going
Because when you were here
You made it clear
To live life
No fear
And now, I don’t know what I’m doing here
I don’t know my purpose anymore
I don’t know where you are
I miss you
Even though I didn’t see you
For years sometimes
You were always on my mind
Wondering what you were scheming
Dreaming
And bringing to life
There was no one like you
Just the thought of you
Was inspiring for so many
I miss you
I want to hug you
Because we didn’t enough
We didn’t say what we felt enough
And now I’m left with only pieces of you
And clues
And it’s up to me to put them together
To understand you
I miss you
I want to see you
And your tan skin
Your goofy grin
Just one more time
Before you fly back
Home
Back to the unknown
Please
Can you come back
I miss you
Do you miss me too?
I love you Brother
We didn’t say it enough
I have regrets that I can’t
Smother
They hurt
They sting
I want another chance
To be the best sister ever
What if we knew this was going to happen?
What would we have done differently?
Be more kind
More loving
More embracing
More understanding
I want you to know
I love who you were
Even the parts of you that remained
Unseen
Even the pieces of you
That seemed
Broken
I love all of you
There is no cause of death
Myth
Or story
That will make me love you less
Cut from the same cloth
We were
Turned into different pieces of clothing
Different styles
And yet
So much the same
And I didn’t see this
Until it was too late
You’re gone
And it’s the shittiest fate
I hate
I spit
I hit
Because I’m angry
I’m so goddamn angry
That you did this
I am mad at you
All in the name of fun
The drugs
It was a ton
And I knew
You were hurting
But you wouldn’t let me in
No one could get in
Brother
No one could get to you
In time
We all cared about you
We wanted you to care about you
And stop doing
What was not good for you
But it was your game
Your life
Your way
And we all had to get onboard
If we wanted to stay
And so many of us did
Want to stay
In your life
In whatever way
We could
And so
We all lived
Never getting to build a bridge
Into your heart
Just accepting
That this was you
Only parts of you
Never the whole you
And even the pieces
Were enough for us
We just wanted to be around you
And now, what am I left to do?
With all these pieces of you
Some true
Some I do not understand
Some people do not believe
And I am here
Fighting for you
The truth of you
Not the picture of you
You were a great man
Jesse Cole Hopper
And I want people to see that
Where do I start?
How do I show your heart?
And all that you could do
How do I show you more
To the people that loved you?
How do I paint a picture
Of the full you
Please help me brother
Help me know
Help me show
Myself and others
Your legacy
Your mystery
All of you
I am listening
Brother
For you
To hear the whispers of direction
The signs of peace
And map of treasure
To my greatest life adventure
I will live it for you
I will let myself forever be inspired by you
I will stay true to me
And allow you to see
From up there
Who I am meant to be
My fullest
Most epic me
In honor of you
My Brother
My guide forever
My lighthouse in the dark
My source of fun and adventure
Taking me places I would never dare venture
Forever connected we are
You are never far
From my heart
Like talking on the phone
I know you are Home
And I can call
Whenever I need you
My Brother in the Sky
Flying high
Sending me joy when I cry
Forever watching me
As I become who I am meant to be
With you by my side
My Brother
I love you